One foot in front of the other

Spending the majority of my free time amidst chaos I often find myself wondering, “what am I doing with my life.”? At first thought this may come across negatively, but it is possible that I may be doing exactly what I want to be doing “with my life”. I just cant decide.

Every day we make millions of choices/decisions. Some conscious and others are influenced by the subconscious mind.

I feel that I am very aware of what I want to do with my life and I plan on achieving any and all that I want. Having these goals and realization of what I want to do theoretically (according to psycho cybernetics and the power of the subconscious mind) should guide me towards doing exactly what I should be doing in order to eventually live my life the way I want, and ultimately accomplishing my goals.

What confuses me is that I often find myself doing everything that I don’t want to be doing… The things that I don’t want to be doing (drugs of any kind, smoking cigs and sitting around “chilling” being idle) are only slowing my progression. I try to be as pro-active as possible yet do what I feel necessary to maintain sanity at the same time.

Because I want to “enjoy life to the fullest” I take no satisfaction in spending 100% of my time and effort physically working towards my “goals”. I reason this because not every step towards “success” is enjoyable (obviously). I am playing with the idea that perhaps although I often find myself physically not working towards my goals. I am putting myself into unproductive environments with people that have a positive energy which, may have a positive impact on my life. This would only be possible if they’re subconsciously working towards their goals, and if their aspirations are worth respecting.

Here is my dilemma. Most of us are young, lost and have no idea what we want to do tomorrow, next weekend, next year and certainly not 10 years from now. If we do or at least claim to have a plan for our futures are we taking the right steps? The best, most efficient steps towards those goals? Whether or not we are working towards improving our futures and achieving our goals, how does one figure out the best way to put one foot in front of the other on a path to these goals?

Enlightenment is appreciated.